#but lately I've been having a lot of fun with it

[feedeeelizashaw]

New year, VERY new me The past year has been absolutely CRAZY. I decided around Christmas last two years to start gaining and get the curves I've always wanted...and here are the results!!!

I have gained over 115lbs last year, very intentionally, and sharing that with you all has been an absolute joy. I know for a lot of people this is an insane thing to do, but the support I've gotten has been overwhelming on here.

So as we wrap the year up, I'd like to provide you with some numbers!

I started the year at 114lbs, and measurements of 34", 22", 34". I was a 32-D.

I ended it (plus or minus dinner and some late night snacks) at 231lbs with measurements of 44" 34" 46". I am now a 34-J

This has truly been the best year of my life, and I love my new shape and I'm so incredibly happy to have met all of you. As far as gaining MORE I'm going to keep doing customs and sponsored stuffings, but without any kind of goal for right now. I just want to eat like an absolute hog like I've been doing without any real end goal. Just see where it takes me. I've always said i'll keep doing this till it stops being fun, and I definitely don't see that happening anytime soon. For those of you who really want like, a NUMBER, I can basically guarantee that unless something changes I'll be going to AT LEAST 280 from here.

[narfin-frood]

another wave of swap doodles from another late night drawing sesh!

talking abt my new thoughts for the au also under the cut :))))))

so i've been thinking on the big catastrophic event. and i've landed on this:

i think the big catastrophic event is caused by the hat. the hat is never scooped up and adopted by wander during the big dispute the previous "owners" had, so it instead lands in the hands of jeff. jeff in the au is already a pretty normal, chill dude, with a band and a life. he's been friends with wander for a while, but during a lull where they don't see each other for a while, he gets ahold of the hat, and the possibilities overcome him. he Didn't Know how Good it feels to be Bad. and he's making up for lost time by tricking out his little ship with guns and thrusters and all sorts of evil stuff.

wander is taken into custody by sylvia, who is working for some organization like the men in black. she interrogates him, and realizes he doesn't know the first thing about what jeff has been up to in his absence, though she has pictures of them hanging out from years back.

they'd search for jeff, who announces himself as major threat when they finally catch up with him, and would attempt to produce some kind of enormous doomsday weapon from the hat. this would be like the last nail in the coffin for the hat, which was already within an inch of blowing up anyway, and it would explode and flatten the entire solar system and surrounding area, taking major threat with it.

sylvia and wander take shelter in a cave right before the blast hits, and when they come out, it's devastation all around. wander's been wrung out, now. his oldest friend is gone, and he feels to some degree responsible for the whole mess, even when sylvia assures him he isn't. they take a trip around and realize just how much damage the hat's explosion had done, and how far it stretches, and that's when wander starts to spiral. surely there's something he could've done to prevent it, and how dare he continue on when who knows how many wonderful people have just been vaporized in the midst of their "battle"(basically just yelling at major threat from a distance Not to Do It).

they come to rest on a planet that still has some firewood left, and sylvia goes off to gather it while wander takes shelter in another cave. A very damp cave, a dark cave, one that seems almost entirely untouched by time. and in the cave, there's one glowing orange mushroom.

anyway, that's about how long sylvia and wander know each other before the cult's inception. i think they only get to have a couple moments where they're just buds on a mission, and then it's all downhill. sylvia readily quits the men in black at some point between meeting wander and meeting major threat, but she retains the skills that made her such a good fit for it. and now, she doesn't have to wear those awful shoes that she hates.

honestly it's taken me so long to come up with something for it because, like i've said before, the wander over yonders are just kind of. backstory-less, largely. we get just enough backstory to want to know more, like with major threat and wander One Thousand Years Ago Exactly and sylvia's past as a bounty hunter, but. like. not much more than that.

and a lot of that has to do with the programming slot this show was given and how little time it actually spent on the air, like a lot of things, but also, y'know. tone. the show is aaaaaalmost a pure comedy, which i love it for, and the bits of tragedy and lore are almost always undercut with n jokes per minute. which!! again!!11! i like! i think it's fun and i like to be happy and have fun. and it also makes those moments of Ohhhh Ouchie my Feelings hit that much harder to have them entirely surrounded by peace love and funny joke.

so anyway. i kinda fear this backstory is just a little too #serious and makes too little #sense to me, but it's the closest i've come to something that makes sense for how wander turned out in the au. Shrugs. We shall see.

and all of this is from a little blurb i wrote for fun so like Please Dont Think This Is The Final Decision please. ill probably change All of this in some way or another bc i fear this gives sylvia very little time to be happy and i want her. to be happy. at some point. i need her to be happy more.

[frozenhi-chews]

Im sure some people have noticed I was gone (I literally posted some things and then got some "Welcome Back" asks that are collecting dust because hiatus break). There's a few reasons why and I kinda hope to fully return one day but idk when. If at all. Uh. For those whom I've bought comms from, I'm still checking in so don't worry about that. Unless ya wanna exchange discords and make it easier.

However funnily enough on this small hiatus, I've been having fun with my self ship and it's alleviated a lotta stress. There's not a lot of stuff I have to worry about, I'm just here to kiss characters, that's it. Also I've been focused on college as the new semester has started hah. It's weird not having a roommate.

But I've been having fun on my own and not worrying about doubles. I do have something planned for the 30th, which is the Starcake anniversary (of when I first self shipped with Starlo, not the wedding.) But there is Valentines day if I miss it.

I love ya, all my moots (/p). You're all amazing and I need to sleep soon. Who knows, maybe I'll fully return. It's very late and I'm feeling sentimental again. Maybe I'll post some self ship art soon. See yall soon

[dhruvxmehta]

A response beyond an amused chuckle and head shake weren't necessary at the face that Elif pulled. Noting the fall though, Dhruv looked at her more intently, he shift in her demeanour wasn't gone unnoticed. And in one way, Dhruv was glad he had asked, it could've gone either way; she could be here genuinely wanting to get drunk and have fun in ways he couldn't grasp or it could've led to a more honest response which it did. Without interrupting the moment, Dhruv sat as she took the time needed to formulate an answer to his question, and the result was something he found relating to in some aspect. With a nod he acknowledged it, "I get it. Only my suitcase isn't open yet." But the thought of wanting to leave had crossed his mind and not left, it was just the matter of convincing his family to let him leave, and convincing himself that it was okay to leave them again. His life had been London, Lunar Cove, London and back to Lunar Cove, was it back to London if he decided? "I don't know where to go nor do I want to start over again."

The shattering of glass brought him back to the present moment cutting whatever thoughts they both seem to have, "Hell…you're bleeding," he stated the obvious blinking at the sight while moved to grab serviettes as well, "Don't know your-?" he cut off the question with a look her, "I know your strength though, we're the same species love, here let me…" And while she wiped at her tears, Dhruv pressed into the wound to keep it from bleeding. With the second honest reply, he nodded again, "No, I didn't think you were. Certainly are not having fun now," he pointed to her hand, "I've got a small first aid pack in my car, should have a bandaid or two, do you want to head outside for a bit? Get this cleaned up?"

He pointed around them, "Didn't realise this was happening. The mixer. I wouldn't have shown up if I knew. Follow up questions negate the taking things at face value, don't they? Leaves little room for curiosity, which, you have have a lot of," he said with a soft smile, "Ain't bad, in most cases. But- Sorry, what?" he cut off again, "You don't have food at home so the next best thought you had was to fill your stomach with bar food and not, I don't know, proper food?"

He nodded, "Yes, in a simple way, it's a method in which DNA can be modified or replaced in the genome of a living thing. Genes can be turned on and off by a number of factors, we can - to a certain ethical extent of course - choose the changes we want to make ," he explained keeping it brief as he could without letting himself infodump. "Most people aren't interested. Plastic surgery is interesting though, why did you decide on that? Was it too late to return to it after the trigger?"

"Yes, but how was I supposed to know your reason if I didn't ask?" She countered, crossing her eyes once over as she made a funny face at him. Her smile only widening as he told her she was exceedingly difficult. Even though he had meant it sarcastically, she liked the way it sounded and was more than happy being exceedingly difficult.

"Shoot," She beamed up at him, resting her head lightly against the side of her glass as she wiggles her brows over at him expectantly, swiveling back in forth in her bar stool once more as she did. She had always been know for her blunt honesty, so she wasn't the slightest bit phased by him deciding to ask her questions in return. That was until that particular question left his lips. The bright smile she wore fell. Her eyes dropped and she found herself swiveling back toward the bar top. Her grip on the cold glass in her hands tightened as she lowered it back down. No one had ever asked her that question before. Are you actually having fun? And the moment those words hit her ears, the sound of the music playing out of the bar speakers dimmed to no more than a faint murmur. She could feel her breath pick up. Her heart pounding against her chest. The anxiety of him looming over her threatened to send her mind spiraling once more. Her entire demeanor grew rigid as her gaze hyper focused on the glass at hand as if she could simply squeeze it tight enough to stop her hands from shaking. "If I didn't come out tonight then..." She pressed her lips together as if to will her tears to remain at bay. "Then I'd be starring at an empty suitcase. Only, I don't really have much of anything to pack or anywhere to go. So, I'm here. Sorunlarımı unut." Forgetting my problems, She explained just as honestly as she had been during their whole back and forth. Only as she squeezed the gaze once more, she winced. The glass shattered under her enhanced strength. "Fuck, sorry," Her hands recoiled as she flashed him an apologetic smile. Only once piece of glass nicked her, thankfully, but her hand was now bleeding. So, the wolf quickly scrambled forward to grab some bar napkins. "Sometimes I don't know my own strength. That's probably even more unattractive huh?" She attempted to make a joke of it as she dabbed at her eyes with the back of her hand. Her gaze lifting up toward to ceiling in an attempt to stop any tears from actually falling.

"What was your second question?" She blinked over at him, having momentarily forgotten it before it sank in once more. Are you actually having fun? "No," She said. Her shoulders lifting and falling into a small shrug as she adverted her gaze once more. "You?"

"You didn't realize what was happening? I took it at face value. I just had follow up questions. Apparently, its part of the 'why?' generation or so I've been told," She shrugged once more. "I also don't have food at home and Bad Moon has the best bar nuts," She tact on as she scooped up a small handful of nuts with her good hand and popped them into her mouth.

"What's gene-editing? Like altering people's DNA? I don't know. I like science. I've never been all too good at it, but I like it. I flunked out of pre-med when I triggered my curse. But, I was supposed to be a plastic surgeon if I hadn't fucked it up." Too, given that she seemed to be a failure at every career she set her mind to, but she didn't say that part out loud. She figured it came with too much of an unwanted backstory. "Genes are interesting to me. Am I not like most people?"

[sockatoothewafflebird]

I MISSED IT.

oh my god. if i had known sooner, i would have done something- drawn a tribute, maybe- for this show. this show is a part of me. this show has been with me through so much and it is impossible to overstate how much it means to me. it was there during the best and worts times of my life. i cannot ever ever imagine my life without this show.

so, as a tribute to it, because i MISSED THE DAMN ANNIVERSARY OHMYGOD, i'll tell my story with it. i feel like it should be shared because i know there are others out there that appreciate the show just as much as i do. this is pretty long so uhhh word wall warning teehee

i remember when i first discovered it,

about halfway into 2020. season one had finished airing by the time i found it. i had heard things about this "lumity" characyer and decided to try it out because i was an "ally" at the time (oh, how things can change).

it wasn't on a streaming service yet, nor did my family use cable TV, so i watched the entirety of the first season through clips pirated on youtube.

i fell in love with it. watched every theory video i could get my grubby little hands on, watched reaction videos, watched those iconic lumity animatics and listened to the songs on loop for months. it became a part of me.

and, guess what? i made the lego eda meme my pfp on my school laptop (remember that one guys?? oh man that was a WHILE ago) and someone in my school, a new guy, asked me about it. said he liked my pfp and asked if he could sit with me and my friends during lunch. and now, even after both of us moving thousands of miles away, we're still in touch.

that was FOUR YEARS AGO. i know that seems kind of a short amount of time, but i've never held a friend that long before, having moved around a lot in my life. long story short the owl house got me like half the friends i have today.

anyway, back to the show.

i can never forget the hype when season 2 was announced.

i remember scrounging youtube like a starving dog for any content, teasers, theories, etc etc etc i could physically find. i was a pretty sheltered kid back then so i couldn't see any hype for it on social media other than youtubers gushing about theories. but i felt like i was there with everyone, squealing and kicking our feet together over our favorite show getting a new season.

most vividly, i remember being fucking pissed when i saw that the third season we could've had was cut short. i remember all the angry videos, and the petitions, everyone, everyone was all collectively screaming for this to change. we wanted the show to get what it deserved, but alas, it's Disney. so of course we just had to make do.

when season two began airing i forgot all about my anger. i forgot everything because, i had to watch it as soon as possible. i'll remind you, dear random internet user, that my family did not have cable TV at the time, so i couldn't watch it the second it aired there. i watched youtubers' reactions to the episodes.

it was the best feeling ever waking up on a saturday and seeing all of the reaction streams to the episode from all my favorite youtubers- i had to watch it all through the tiny top left corner of my phone screen and i was ecstatic. i loved being able to watch the show with everyone else, even if i sometimes missed reaction premiers or streams and got to them a day late- it was in the top ten most fun months of my life.

oh, and, do you remember? do we all remember Through The Looking Glass Ruins? the episode where gus develops his character and powers, and also the episode in which... you know... amity and luz indirectly admit their feelings for one another? TO each other? you just had to be there for the EXPLOSIONS that happened online that day. the absolute SCREAMS of joy from everyone when amity cheek-kissed luz at the end. it was amazing to witness so many people everywhere, in my social circle and online, collectively cheering and shouting for joy over a queer couple. a sapphic couple, portrayed positively, and casually, and OPENLY.

you have no idea how amazing it felt, after years of questioning myself, to see that on screen. to see that and to see everyone happy about it.

in the time between season one and season two's release, i opened up about questioning my sexuality to my parents, and they were... reluctantly supportive. i took a ton of time to figure it out myself, like maybe two years of constantly cycling though labels and wondering and wondering and thinking really really hard about it.

i remember seeing luz and amity very clearly being a potential couple in the show, and then they actually BECOME A CANON COUPLE a few episodes later, and feeling utter jealousy because i wanted what they had. the world exploded because, for a lot of people, this was a huge finally moment. finally, we have something good for ourselves. i remember watching and re-watching the lumity scenes in the first part of season two over and over and over, and thinking, "i don't want this with a boy. i want it like that." and it was liberating. i cannot thank this show enough for that feeling of fully accepting myself as a 100% organic home-grown lesbian.

that's just my experience with the show, but i'm sure there are tons of other similar stories, because this show was my first exposure to positive queer rep (raine whispers and amity blight are me favorite characters, i think you can guess why) and that changed everything for me.

anyway, on with the show.

the second part of season two released, and the fandom went wild. i cried. i sobbed. the finale was amazing, the lumity moments were amazing (they're portrayed as one of the healthiest couples i've ever seen in modern media ohmygod), the story was amazing. every episode, banger after banger. every minute, smile after tear after mind-blowing moment. the owl house team took disney's smelly, rotten lemons, and they made fucking lemonade. the best lemonade i've ever had.

and also, can i talk about how amazing it is to see so much representation of usually horribly portrayed groups? luz is canonically ADHD. many characters could also be seen as neurodivergent (gus my beloved) eda's curse is a stand-in for chronic illness. hunter's entire story is one about abuse, and belos's is a story of how a person can become a monster, about how sometimes monsters cannot and should not be redeemed. this show is a fucking masterclass in rep.

anyway, "season three" (fuck yoy disney) was amazing, and every episode made me bawl.

i remember seeing that they released the episodes in youtube, and i remember the absolute beauty it was to see millions upon millions of views for it. i remember watching the first one while making myself an omelette. that omelette ended up having my tears in it. i'll have you know that i almost never cry at media, so the owl house really fucking achieved something with all of the tears i shed.

i remember crying when luz "died," crying when she came back and screamed in bel-ass' face , "EAT THIS, SUCKAAA"- and i remember crying at the collective "byeeee" from the whole cast. i remember feeling a sense of bittersweetness that it was over. but the whole cast got the endings they deserved, and that was enough for me.

the owl house is a part of me now.

the owl house's run was a comfort when the news was screaming and crying, it was a comfort when i needed escape, and it was a huge part of the person i am today. i cannot ever thank this show enough.

i'll probably draw something to commemorate the anniversary if i ever find the time, but for now, this post is a way for me to send my appreciation towards the fandom, the creators in the fandom, and the creators of the show that made it possible. this show is over now and has been for years, but it will never leave me. happy five years, everyone! here's to many more! 🥂

[nightwonder7]

Hunters are (in most cases) how survivors perceive certain characters under the influence of drugs. But how likely is it that two people hallucinate the exact same image upon the same individual? Highly unlikely. We see an example of this with Norton and how Orpheus and Alice perceive him so differently. In Go Hunting, he is this large and bulky brute, while in Ashes of Memory, he is this tall figure made of rocks.

This has had me thinking of a potential point of tension. Bear with me, this is kinda long and rambly.

Let's say all the characters end up in this limbo that is the manor after they die during or after the games (with the exception of the deities cause... yeah, they're immortal. So they're just trapped there, forced to play part in these games for all eternity). Anyway! I personally like to think that most of members in the Da Capo gang managed to slowly reconcile with each other, or at the very least come to a mutual agreement, after they ended up in this limbo. Perhaps with the exception of Orpheus.

So when Norton is eventually granted a hunter form, it is the one born from the hallucination of Alice's psyche combined with the drugs. I feel like Alice would disclose this for the sake of honesty and transparency, even if the whole situation is a mystery in itself. But from Norton's point of view, it is Alice's fault he has now ended up like this, and what relationship they managed to build up just unravels.

Yes, he might find it invigorating to be able to let his pent up frustration go during the manor games. But this also leads to the other survivors becoming scared and untrusting of him, and thus ostracizing him. As if his relationship with the others wasn't difficult enough for him to navigate. His world view was molded from the harsh environment he grew up in where it was every man for himself. He's full of rage and despair over the situation, and he's taking it all out on Alice; so much so that the other hunters need to hold him back at times.

Even if it is beyond Alice's control, she still feels guilty over what happened to Norton because he took the form of her hallucination. And now she feels responsible to fix it, or at least find an explanation to why this happened to him. They had slowly managed to heal from the conflict between them during the manor games outside of limbo. But this new conflict just resets all of it. She would try everything in her power to fix their relationship. And perhaps with time, Norton starts to realise that Alice is not to blame for his predicament.

[fluffydeoxys]

had some fun with status quo, featuring Zero!

[crabsnpersimmons]

"Hair dyes or perms or just a quick snip, you can always count on your ol' pal Clip!"

it's about time i officially shared my design for Clip from my hairdresser au! here's the silly boi himself!

a.k.a. the most complicated character i've ever designed...

close ups and additional comments under the cut!

that's my boi, despite his crazy design, i love him. his silly top knot hat, the horn-like points around his faceplate, his speckled colours, his four arms, and his funky pants. he's just soooooo fun.

Clip likes to play games and knit! he even made the patchwork pants he wears (he made Sun and Moon a pair too, but they're too precious for them to wear... also a little gaudy to wear in public—doesn't stop Clip tho!). He actually makes everything the boys wear, since there's not a lot of things in their size/shape.

instead of resting at night, he can be found in their living room, playing Kirby 64 for the nth time and/or knitting something. he's just too restless to stay still, he's always gotta be doing something and if it isn't gaming, knitting, or hairdressing, then he's up to No GoodTM.

Clip... likes popping balloons. he says "Goodnight!" with each popped balloon and once he's done, he tosses up the scraps like confetti all while giggling joyfully.

needless to say, he is not fun at parties. Sun and Moon don't let him near balloons for this reason.

and yes, he has sewing needles on hand at all times. for fashion emergencies... and for unsuspecting balloons.

Clip's not allowed to have a phone (just imagine all the in-app purchases Sun and Moon would have to deal with), but he likes to keep up with his customers and their games, even if he doesn't get their fixation over bluenets he'll never openly admit it but he prefers curly-haired blond hunks that look sweet in soft pastels but could also squash him like the spider he is

also, he's great at microbraiding! though i imagine if Sun and Moon are free, they'd come help to shorten the wait but also to compete and see who braids the most (Clip always wins of course—make anything into a game, and he's winning)

aaaaand there's this! i wanted to make sure Clip would be able to freely rotate his waist so his arms could have their full range of motion, and this was the solution i came up with: a crop top on top and a wrap around his waist. and Clip here is being a sneaky little scamp about it.

[ukiyoebirds]

When you're the only one in the friend group who has wings.

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[twentytwoarts]

i like to think because he became a prince so young poo disavowed all things "childish" and suppressed his emotions so that they wouldn't get the better of him when it came to important decision making, so when he joined ness and co he didn't really know how to behave his age and it led to everyone in the party just kinda feeling bad for him

[blujaydoodles]

it's ice cream season, babes

(inspired by this)

[sysig]

Good skeles, like you lots (Patreon)

[automatonknight]

id: a digital, fullbody drawing of elphelt valentine from guilty gear. she's shown standing up, facing the viewer, holding a boquet of roses in her right hand. she's smiling and looking to the right. elphelt is wearing a white wedding gown with two, big decorative ears on top of it, a long, white dress adorned with red belts and silver spikes, red and white gloves and white shoes. she also has two pink bows, ones tied around her neck and one around her waist. the background is transparent. end id

[biblically-accurate-dca]

birthday !!!!!!

[juustozzi]

I could hear the sound Distant and thin Of our hearts caving in

kinda of a continuation to the previous galaxy piece, though I'm trying to not make this grow too much...

[jae-birde]

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"I don't have friends, I have family." - Joel "Smallbeans" Toretto

Big congrats to Joel for the win! I was following him and Gem from the beginning until the very end, and I'm so proud of him for getting a victory!

Bonus doodle under the cut

Gem cheering on her teammate! (after she mocked him for his poor trapping skills of course)